Please just listen

Hey lovely readers

As I write this I just want to scream with frustration after feeling awesome and finishing my last ever shift at work on Friday I headed for my routine check up were midwifes monitor baby Urquhart and give me a scan to check the baby's movements and fluid which turned into me being admitted into hospital, everything was fine with the baby who seems pretty happy and the whole time during the scan was drinking and moving its little lips but the same old story with my health, except this time I didn't even feel unwell.

After the midwife taking my blood pressure which was high she spoke with the on call doctor who refused to let me home, the frustration I felt trying to explain my body and illness just went unnoticed. I even got the midwife to take my blood pressure lying down then when I sat up and how it got even higher to show them what my heart was doing and how this all seems to impact on my blood pressure, but the  obstetrician just wouldn't take any notice and even gave me more beta blockers despite me trying to tell her this was to much and it would all go back to normal once my heart slowed down ... anyway taking the extra dose after giving up .. guess what I was right my blood pressure dropped too low which resulted in them not letting me leave the department while waiting on a bed as they said they would probably have to come and pick me off the floor due to my blood pressure being so low. This made me feel so angry I am not a doctor but I know my own body and felt if they had listen to me explaining that my heart seems to impact on my blood pressure none of this would of happened.

IST frustrates me in so many ways that medical staff don't seem to understand it and the doctor who just kept saying I didn't understand how bad this blood pressure was for me or the baby... clearly didn't understand anything about IST, so instead I spent the whole night and first day on my holidays in hospital. and after everything my blood pressure did just go back to normal. Feeling like no one would listen became to much for me and this time actually got so upset as I felt hopeless trying to explain it all to people who I felt just were not listening or wouldn't even try to understand what I was telling them. I have another check up on Tuesday and feel scared to go now as the fear of my heart beating fasting and my blood pressure increasing is going to result in me being admitted into hospital even though I feel good.

Apart from all the bad stuff we finally finished decorating baby Urquharts room and just have a few little bits and pieces to do.

 Baby's Little swing 33 weeks 7 weeks to go :)

 Baby Urquhart's Room fit for a little mr or mrs :)

Love and Hugs 

31 Weeks :)

Hey Lovely Followers !

After bouncing back from the viral infection I had last week I managed a full week at work, and I have been feeling pretty good, I am now 31 weeks 4 days pregnant and I am still managing the small walk to work, I found myself a few times this week having to stop and let my heart slow down but apart from that I have being feel pretty normal .. something I haven't felt in a while, I now have 8 weeks left  on Monday till our due date and only one week left to work :)

                                                            Some Cute things for baby !

I have been having problems with feeling the baby's movements and on Tuesday decided to phone the midwife who sent me straight to hospital after a long few hours in hospital they checked the baby who has a perfect tracing of its heart and movements and even though I feel very little because of my placenta we have one active baby who likes to try and move away from the monitor, I also had a scan to check the fluid levels around the baby which the doctor thought looked a little low, so decided to check the levels again the next again day, so returning on Wednesday which was my only day off this week I spent the whole day at the hospital but seeing baby Urquhart's little cute face again made it all worth it who is still lying head down and is weighing an amazing 1848g (4.07pounds) and hearing the little heart beating is always just so precious so even though I am spending most days at hospital its all worth it, I had to return back today for another check were they decided to check the fluid again which is all measuring normal and seeing baby Urquhart for the 3rd time this week makes me impatient and just want our due date to hurry up were I finally get to touch the cute little face that flashes up each time on the scan.

                                      Baby Urquhart 31 weeks 2 days weighing an amazing 4 pounds


Also this week I received a letter and have an appointment to meet anesthetics  since I am classed in the high risk catogory with my heart problems which is the same day as my growth scan at 34 weeks and now having to go for checks twice a week. Me and Dougie have started decorating the nursery with the wallpaper nearly finished there is not much left to do and can't wait for the exciting bit of building the furniture and organising the clothes and things I have not to mention the baby shower that is planned in October which I am excited about, all little things to speed up the time to make my due date come quicker.

                                                      Baby Urquharts tracing :)

Love and Hugs


                                           

Joys of a Rubbish Immune System

Hey Lovely readers

Well I feel my blog always fills up with bad health posts... and unfortunately for me I seem to very rarely have good health, Me and Dougie started decorating baby Urquhart's room which has just been a nightmare just stripping the walls and spent the whole of Sunday feeling stressed about it all just wanting to make it perfect, but as Sunday night came I started to feel a sore throat come on and woke up on Monday morning feeling like death warmed up .. and the worst part I had work my first long day since my first hospital trip I managed to make it through work despite the way I was feeling and then had the midwife after which to my amazement I am 30 weeks pregnant but measuring 32 weeks so much for a small baby and the news that the baby isn't lying breech any more and is head down. I was so glad to finally get home and headed straight to bed feeling terrible.

Things could only get worse I woke on Tuesday morning feeling even worse, chocked with the cold such a bad headache, sore throat and covered in a rash all over my hands and chest I made an emergency appointment with the nurse at my doctor's surgery, on the way to the appointment I started to experience a hazy feeling in my eyes and could barely see where I was going having to stop and start. The nurse at first thought I maybe had Scarlett fever with the rash I had and got a doctor to look at me but the doctor said it was a viral infection  and the rash was proof my body was trying hard to fight it and if things couldn't get worse refused to give me anything with being pregnant as anything they could give to help is unsafe being pregnant so paracetamol was my only option. They also swabbed my throat as my throat was very red which was very unpleasant, and the worst part of it all was the doctor asking me how long I had left to work and saying I had to rest and go home to bed with lots of fluids and work wasn't an option as my immune system is rubbish anyway and even worse being pregnant and would just end up picking up other things and feeling worse.

I came out the surgery feeling fed up and emotional, I feel I am in a constant battle to feel ok and be normal making it to work everyday like everyone else but my body just doesn't let me, I spent the rest of the day crying in bed just feeling sorry for myself but part of me angry as I eat healthy take multivitamins everyday and no matter how much I look after myself I still become ill all the time and would give anything to just make it through a month without an infection, I did manage to make it out of bed late afternoon for a dentist appointment ... but yet again more bad news this pregnancy has just ruined my teeth I have had pregnancy gingivitis since day one my gums constantly bleed and hurt I need at least 3 fillings because of it all but my dentist refuses to x-ray or carry out the fillings till the baby is here but love getting my teeth cleaned strange I know but I love going to the dentist.

The only good thing to come out of a bad day is the dentist said to me if you look as good as you feel you look amazing .. when I had no make up on .. feeling like death warmed up either he was blind or maybe I actually didn't look as bad as I was feeling, so bed rest for me and now feeling the countdown is really on 9 weeks left till our due date :) ... and keeping my eyes on the prize is making all this bad health worth it.

30 week Baby bump measuring 32

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